Assalammualaikum and Good day!
This entry is merely my story before, while and after delivered my son. Purposely to keep it as my memory, as you all know, could be I forgot the journey, could be my son wanted to know (oh, he's crying! Bad dreams I guess).
I still remember, it was 31st December 2016. Me having a trip to Putraya (ceywahh like it was so far huh?) with my husband, my cousins' family and my in laws. It was just a sudden trip as we wanted to celebrate new year there watching lights and motion event held there. That time I 'm already 36 weeks pregnancy.
With my 'perut buyung' dan 'perut dah jatuh', I gigihkan diri dengan intentioned kononnya nak kerap jalan to ease the delivering progress KONONNYA. Yeah memang 'mujarab', terlebih 'mujarab'. You'll know later.
Staying at a hotel next to the dataran yang buat event tu. I still remember petang tu cari makan petang, I saw a cendol stall but the lady said,"Cendul habis". Time tu cuba untuk tak kempunan.
And that night, I remember after Maghrib, we went down to find something for dinner but all FULL HOUSE and CLOSED. So, my husband tapau kan some bread and air kotak. Walking to the dataran, surely like hiking a hill tau! Ada banyak foodtruck and yes of course, LONG QUEUE. I just buat tak tahu dengan dinner and keep on walking along, tengok lampu-lampu yang Putrajaya dah decorated and yup memang cantik. Tengok persembahan motion lights. Tapi I tak larat nak tunggu until midnight and plus I was super hungry. Went back to hotel, mandi, and get ready to sleep.
Midnight arrived, boleh dengar bunyi fireworks je dari bilik, cannot see it from my window. My husband kejutkan to feed me with roti john, he's afraid to let me sleep with empty tummy. I told him something.
"Baby kurang gerak hari ni. Sangat kurang."
You know bila dah tiba waktu kena buat baby movement counting. And that night macam susah sangat nak complete kan 10 movements. My husbang quite worried and he asked me either I want to check at the hospital.
"Tak apa lah. Maybe ruang sempit nak gerak cause baby is getting bigger." I just sedapkan hati dia... and me.
The next day, having a breakfast, I makan gila-gila non-stop. Muka sembab sangat, selekeh. Check out then went to IOI untuk makan aiskrim Magnum. Then gerak ke rumah in laws.
Sangat sangat ingat, masa tu baring untuk tunggu waktu Isyak. I was playing scrolling my phone laying on the bed. That time I felt something wet at you-know-where. I sat and just check it by wiped it with tissue (dasar pemalas nak tengok guna mata directly). And bila tengok tissue, something slippery red and clear on that tissue. Mata terbeliak. Like cannot hadam. What's that???
Tiba tiba teringat apa yang I baca untuk tanda-tanda dah nak beranak. Something named 'show', lelehan jernih and merah like darah. I terus tengok my panties. I was really really really shock! Oh my God is my baby ready to come out??? Sebab due date should be another 2 weeks. Oh that day was January 1st 2017. I was alone in my husband's room, while he was probably at the kitchen with his parents. I called my Mama. I told her what happened and what should I do. She said better come to KL and check it at the hospital. She asked me to calm down. Later then, I think I texted my husband to come to the room, sebab malas nak keluar bilik+takut nak keluar bilik.
He came and I told him to relax.
"Abang, tadi Sya tengok spenda Sya dah keluar lendir merah." At first he was like blurrrrr. And then I continued.
"Tu tanda-tanda nak beranak dah bang." Then baru dia bagi reaksi terkejut. Dia tanya sakit tak. Ada rasa apa-apa tak? Tapi dia still act cool. He called his Mama. His mom said to check it with hospital. She also said that probably cause I jalan banyak sangat malam new year tu sebab tu keluar darah. His Ayah insists sangat sangat suruh check dekat Hospital SALAM which is not far from the house but kitaorang tak nak.
So, malam-malam tu drive ke KL. Mula-mula nak direct balik rumah I tapi my Mama suruh pergi hospital check dulu. Okay, we listened to her. Sampai hospital, LUCKILY, I bring along the pink book everywhere. Cuma unfortunately, kitaorang tak ready lagi barang-barangkeperluan di hospital. LOL. Tapi malam tu macam confident Belum Waktu Beranak Lagi. So, nurse check heartbeat baby.
Tengah nurse tu sibuk borak, tiba-tiba one of them macam kelam-kabut and panic tengok chart heartbeat my baby dalam perut ni. They started to make a call, walking fast here and there. They started to change my clothes, put some wires on my chest, a girl doctor come to check berapa besar dah bukaan V. Then tiiiba datang doctor chinese guy and nak tengok juga bukaan V ADOIII WHY MUST HIM LA CHECK IT! He insert tomething like a rod into my V and masa tu rasa basah panas. And that time I know my water broke unnaturally. Tapi still don't get it what happened. I asked a nurse there, "Kenapa ni?" Nurse tu senyum and kata nanti ada doctor akan explain to me. Nurse tu blah tapi I boleh dengar dia bercakap dengan kawan dia,"Dia tanya Kenapa Ni.." . Masa tu rasa macam KENAPA SALAH KE AKU TANYA?
Wire berselirat dekat badan. A doctor came. She told me something yang I can conclude, my baby's heartbeat drop in a sudden and dikhuatiri lemas or terbelit tali pusat. Masa tu masih cuba control my mimik muka untuk nampak tenang and macho tapi dalam hati kata,"Allah, selamatkan anak aku!"
But then I heard a nurse said,"Doctor, dah normal balik." She waited for the doctor decision samada nak teruskan keluarkan baby secara operation or not. And the doctor decided untuk teruskan.
Masa ni my husband tak tahu cerita. Dia tunggu dekat luar bilik tapi he said dia nampak nurse kelam kabut keluar masuk. Bila I ditolak ke depan pintu to meet my husband, the doctor explain, and I can see his face macam berubah. I rasa macam nak peluk dia hopefully dia tak risaukan kami. I just smile and smile to him, dengan harapan dapat tenangkan dia. Doctor minta sign untuk kebenaran operation tu. That time betul betul masa tarikh January 2nd 2017, dalam pukul 12.02 a.m.. Badan I start menggigil, nurse kata maybe kesan suntikan ubat. Dia kata selalunya kalau operate kena puasa tapi I baru je lepas makan nasi goreng huhuhu.
I ditolak masuk ke bilik. Badan I menggigil shaking so hard tak boleh control punya. Bukan sebab takut, tapi like the nurse mention lah, kesan suntikan.
Dekat meja bedah. I nampak lampu. Pakar bius datang. Masa ni kepala otak teringat cerita my friend yang kena bius 2 times sebab ubat bius tak jalan. I prayed,"Janganlah kena cucuk dua kali!"
Doktor bius usik usik my paha tanya ada rasa tak. Masa tu I dapat rasa dia usi. Memang kena jawab tegas sebab WOI AKU NAK KENA BELAH PERUT KOT KALAU TAK KEBAS MAMPUS AKU.
Then the doctor kata I akan rasa macam semut semut then tak rasa apa-apa dah. Dalam hati "Tolonglah kebas tolonglah kebas."
Badan masih gigil kuat. I tak rasa dia belah perut tapi rasa seksa bila dia tekan tekan perut and dada rasa macam,"Eh diorang di nak keluarkan baby or organ aku sekali?" Sangat sesak dada tau dia tekan tekan urgh! I boleh nampak bayang dekat penutup lampu atas kepala I tapi I buat-buat tak nak tengok sebab ngeri.
Tiba-tiba perut rasa kempis kosong. That time I waited for a sound. "Allah, selamatkan anak aku. Bagi aku dengar suara dia ya Allah!" I tak dengar bunyi dia nangis. For a few seconds, at last....
I heard a crying baby! Masa tu legaaaa yang amat sangat sampai tak henti henti ucap syukur padaNya.
Then proses menjahit. Rasa lamaaa sangat. I muntah. I kata dekat nurse,"Saya rasa nak muntah." Sebelum start bedah, someone kata probably I akan muntah sebab I tak puasa before operate.
Nurse sediakan plastik and letak sebelah pipi I. I toleh and muntah. Yeah, my dinner.
Masa proses jahit, I sempat terlelap. Hohoho! Ngantuk.
Nurse datang bawa baby. Dia suruh I bagitahu dia apa jantina anak I. I nampak bibird and telor. "Boy..." I senyum. I tak nampak jelas muka anak I sebab I tak pakai spectacles.
Malam tu I warded. Masa tu kaki masih kebas dari paras pinggang ke bawah. So memang nurse angkat and uruskan I. Husband datang and letak barang-barang I. He smiled and kissed me. "Abang dah azankan dia. Anak kita lelaki!" I senyum and angguk. Malam tu juga baby I ada sebelah I. Tapi I tak nampak sangat muka dai sebab he's facing to the other side plus I kan tak boleh gerak masa tu.
Spend 3 days at ward. Mula-mula okay je, next night dah rasa stress sebab anak asyik nangis and masa tu I tak tahu nak buat apa. Dia berak. I tak ada wet tissue time tu. Husband tak bawak kan. I guna tisu biasa and basahkan. Habis kena selimut dia, tangan I. Nasib baik ada nurse dengar, and she assists me.
I'm a mom now.
I called myself as Mak.
Ramai yang macam terkejut sebab I gelarkan diri I just Mak, not mommy, not mama, not something else. They said,"Wow classic."
There's a reason.
1. My Mama called her mother as Mak.
2. My husband chose to call him as Ayah. So if, I choose to call me Mama, nanti sama macam parents dia. HOHOHO!
My son's name... (Oh he woke up..again... Macam tahu tahu je nak cerita pasal dia.)
Muhammad Kayyis.
He's now 8 months old. And now laying on my lap, munching my phone -_-"
Kayyis, this is how Mak delivered you. Hope you'll always love Mak like no other. Cause I love you too.
Kayyis, get down from the air cooler!!!!!
